When Meredith was born and died in October of 1974, the funeral was the only "celebration" she had, and I can't remember 95% of the funeral. I am fairly certain it was not a celebration of life, though. It was rushed, I was rushed and didn't get to take the time I wanted with her. It was just a standard funeral. No one gave us cutesy little Christmas ornaments for her that year, no one bought a soft stuffed animal in memory of her, no one but us bought a poinsietta in memory of her at church. The only Christmas ornaments I have received for her came from YOU - the BLMs I have met online. I can't really tell you how much I appreciate any memento that has ever been sent for my baby.
Well, this year I have decided to have a Celebration Of Life for her birthday on October 3. My husband and I talked and he said I could. Our immediate family is going out to eat at Outback Steak House and then we are returning to our twin daughters' home to have birthday cake. In honoring Meredith, we will also be honoring our living children who brought us tremendous joy after her passing. I wouldn't be totally honest if I said that everyone is happy about this. There are a couple of people who think I am losing my marbles. It hurts to know that, after all I have been through over the years. I am totally sane, I assure you. I am not depressed. I feel better about my loss than I ever have.
I have been requesting things that other BLMs make for our darlings. I have saved the most recent things sent to post this week. If you would like to pray for us that day, send Meredith a picture for her blog, mail her a birthday card for her scrapbook, or do a random act of kindness in her memory, I would be honored. We will be donating to Sufficient Grace Ministries for Women in her memory. All I have ever wanted for Meredith since she couldn't stay on Earth, was for her to be loved and remembered. I will love her and remember her as long as I live, and then I hope Jesus meets me with her in His arms.
THE LOVELY ROSE ON THIS PAGE WAS SENT BY AMBER, SWEET MOTHER TO HER SLEEPING ANGEL, PRECIOUS ELI DAVID, WHO WENT TO HEAVEN JUNE 17, 2010.
AMBER, THANK YOU SO MUCH!